Roots

Life is no fairytale of happily ever afters
And roots…
Roots just hold you down
So you don’t leap off to the unknown.
There is no bliss in ignorance,
Just disgrantlements
Where we step on each others toes
Then slowly assemble pecking orders
And compete against the next person
When we should be working together
For betterment of ourselves.


There is a whole world out there!
And it waits,
Arms outstretched in a ready embrace
For the first
Soul that leaps off to the horizon.
But we have developed roots,
And accumulated too much clutter
Then clipped off our wings in infancy
Before we even knew how to fly.


To us, the outside world is a mirage
Wishful thinking for
What we want but can never have.
So we emulate it instead
And call it a simple term, “to dream.”
I might not be able to buy that sleek Mercedes,
But I’d paint up my battered corolla
and fit pre-owned
mag rims
On second hand tyres.
Its not as safe,
But it works!
See? Sleek and shiny.
Its never the same though
Because none of it is ever real.
But what’s real is a
Reality much harsher
Than the fantasy we emulate.

My brother brags with friends about bitches and hoes.
The same mouth he swears with, he kisses momma with affection.
And I know that nigga is pretentious.
Because I see him sweat everyday and still evades his landlord on payday.


Momma ain’t raised no pimp,
She’d give a kidney to see him walk on proper pants
That don’t sag below his knees.
My baby daddy said he’d call tonight,
Third time in a row now he didn’t
When he said he would.
He makes promises that man
Half of which he always fails to deliver.
But I know its hard at work
And he says stuff keep piling up,
I just pray I never catch that jezebel
He strings me along with
Because then he’d have a valid reason
To pay maintenance while I am behind bars.
Its platonic, he says

But somewhere between his tides of aggression
And calm aftermaths
I lose all reason to
Trust him
He submerges me and I drown
Losing breath as his currents sweep me under
Then just as swiftly washes me off to the shore.
Yet I cling to him
As if he were my life jacket
but I know perfectly well
His heavy anchors draw me under.
Someday I may have to cut loose
But I dread the day I swim on the deep end
With no life jacket.


Still, there will come a time
Where there will be need to shed off all entanglements
Sprout new wings and practice my leaps
we’ll disassemble all pecking orders and
Come to realise that our strength lies
Where we are for,
And not against each other.
the roots that ground us
Have no need to imprison us.
And in hindsight
We reminiscence that
There is as much world here as there is out there for
Our wealth was never monetary
And we are worth much more than silver coins
Or currency notes.

How real are you?

Jennifer Legotlwane, Botswana

#MemoirsOfUs #SmoliAndI

See, I want to write you down as a poem
That I will recite in my heart
For days days on end because
Its the memory of you that I want to keep alive in mine heart

I want to quote every moment I spent with you
Punctuate every moment with your smile
Pen every feeling and capture it in ink
The same way I press the shutter to freeze our moments spent in our bliss

There are things we know by heart
And there are those we don’t
And right now mine yearns to write you poems
Only you can read
So I can put a smile on your face once more

I want to write you down like you are the last poem I will ever compose
How, when you smile,
I get closer to believing in divinity
How else can I not
When simply your smile takes my breath away to give me life?

I want to write you like the sun that set
While we watched it from atop a mountain
From whence I knew time is also tender
Because of the moments I spent with you.
And I vowed I will chase these sunsets with you

I will write you down as this poem
And tuck you safely in my heart
Because I know its where you belong
And tell you these words
Because I…


Pardon Gwara, Zimbabwe

Come Out Of The Shade

I am waiting for the day
When you become less proud
Of the mask you wear to enhance you
The lighter shade of skin that you chose
Because you say its beautiful
I am waiting for that day
When you detoxify your body
From the numerous drugs you took
To be an enhanced beauty

Come out of the shade and dance with me in the sun
I want to remind you that you are beautiful, too
In your kinky hair and dark skin
You are just the right complexion
To absorb the sun when we take long walks in the streets
You have the perfect pair of lips
That can kiss me to oblivion
Only if you leave them be
They do not need another colour for me to know where they are
You have the perfect eyebrows
That always draw my fingers to your face

Come out of the shade
And let me dance with you in the rain
Without fear of wetting your plastic hair
I want to love you without make up
Because I have seen you beautiful than ever
I want to hold your hands
And not be scared to break the fake nails either
I want to be with you,
Only if you come out of the shade
And go back to the woman who once caught my heart

Come out of the shade
And stop hiding behind the shades of make up
I would be alone
Than to be with a doll with the soul of someone
I once knew
So please, for the love of yourself
Lose the mask, and be beautiful again.

Pardon Gwara, Zimbabwe